|Coloring is very therapeutic!|
Three and a half weeks ago, I had major abdominal surgery. My friends and co-workers gave me crayons, coloring books, movies, books, and puzzles to keep me entertained during my recovery. I thought for sure that I would do all those things plus start and finish projects on my never ending To Do List. What I did not realize was that recovery was not the same as a staycation.
While it appeared that I was healing from the outside, who knew that I had to consider what was happening on the inside.
Yes, Marji, the surgeon took a few things OUT of you. This required CUTTING your tissue which is connected to your body. You are alive and you bleed, remember?
Oh yeah... I was forgetting about being human and my close call with cancer. I had pushed aside thoughts of how big of a deal this really was. After all, my surgical wound had been healing nicely.
I got a little cocky. I fancied myself to be the overachiever of recovery from surgery. Accepting invitations to dinner, a concert, trips to the dog beach, I convinced myself that these were not body-stressing activities. Quickly, I was reminded that this was not the case.
Just as I thought my healing was progressing, approximately an inch-long section of my incision closest to my belly button developed some redness and started oozing a small amount of thick, white fluid.
Oh crap... Not a good sign. Infection? Possibly. Ugh.
I don't know what did it. Was it taking my pup Maggie and her BFF Lucy to the beach a few times this week? Maybe when I was cleaning up around the house, I overexerted myself. Or have I been sleeping on my belly and not realizing it?
Whatever the cause, it is glaringly apparent that I am not relaxing as much as I should be. Since becoming a nurse, it hasn't been easy for me to do this.
Oh, why are we nurses such bad patients?
In a few days, I will see the doctor to see what he has to say. I am sure that he will read the guilt plastered on my face. He will make me eat my words from last time when I commented on how well my healing was progressing.