13 April 2014

Cleaning House

Back in January, I started Project Mind Cleanse.  So far so good.  I have not really missed regular television.  And now on to the next step...

Step Two:  Declutter

One City Girl plus City Dog can make a pretty mean mess.  I've started to go through papers and other "stuff", filling bags and bags with ready-to-donate goods.  I'm not sure why, but I am actually feeling lighter.

When I was a kid, my father always asked me this question when I begging him to buy me something:

Do you WANT it or do you NEED it?

Most of the time, the answer was "want."  If I insisted that it was need, then he instructed me to wait 24 hours before buying it.  Usually, I found that I really didn't want it anymore.  I ask myself this same question as go through my stuff.

And it's not only my belongings that I'm looking to clean up.  My decluttering phase also includes so-called friendships and social networking sites.  I have an unnatural attachment to these things.  We'll see how much I can purge!!!

12 April 2014

It's About Time

This blog is long overdue for an overhaul.

I have spent the last few months trying to decide what to do with it.  Should I just take it down completely?  Should I just change it?

After going back and forth, I have decided to wipe this slate clean and see what happens.  It's time to for something new.

Stay tuned...

06 January 2014

Sucked Back Into The Vortex

I am a Dorothy who has been captured by the tornado, escaped it, and then got sucked back in.

For several months, I have been talking about my plan to get back to a balanced life and be a happy person.  I'm sorry that my friends have to listen to my inspired speeches and detailed plans for finding joy, and then they sadly watch how I slip into inaction.  As I have written, I have been living mostly in my head, playing out the various escape scenarios, and then talking myself out of making the daring exit from the insanity in which I currently dwell.

I don't know why I am stuck.  Reading inspirational posts from my favorite blogs has given me so many ideas, but yet I can't move forward. Is the burden in my head and my heart too much?  I have no idea.  I know that I need to listen to myself.  The only thing is, I can't hear Me.

Would the Real M please show up???

Tonight I watched a new television show - well, actually, only part of it.  It was exciting up until the horrendously violent scene where a guy was being tortured in front of his wife, a profiler for the government.  I thought, "Holy shit, they actually show this on TV???"

"What the fuck?????" I said out loud.

Yes, it was bad enough that I threw the F bomb around with no one else to hear it.  (Well, except for my dog and she didn't like it.)  It was then that I realized I needed to get away from the crap that was invading valuable real estate in my brain.

Time to clean house.

Initiating Project Mind Cleanse...

I'm turning it off.  No more commercials about the latest exercise craze, lawyers that want to help you sue big companies, or how to get rid of unwanted hair.  No more reality shows that are not based on reality or shows so violent they inspire the real thing in your city.  No more news shows that repeat the same depressing news every hour on the hour.  I'm done with the messages that I once thought benign, but have somehow seeped into my brain.  Just to be clear, I am not giving up video entertainment.  I will stick with Netflix and my DVDs I own.  I've done it before and, by golly, I can do it again.  And I was fine.  I will be fine.

We shall see how that goes for one week.

Stay tuned for STEP TWO.

04 January 2014

Do Over

Happy 2014...  Looking back on 2013, it appears that I didn't have much to write.  The truth is that I lived mostly in my head and ignored this blog.  Between trying to survive at work and finding time to have fun outside of that, I really didn't have the inspiration to write anything.  Well, at least anything positive.  I mean, who wants to read a rant on how my job is going to slowly kill me?

It's a new year and I would really like to get back to writing.  So it's time for me to stop making excuses and get on with it then...

Here we go...

05 October 2013

Progress Notes

Peace of mind ~  I was pursuing it with great gusto and, as hard as I tried to find it, I failed.  But then I sat still.  I stopped fighting the chaos around me.  I accepted that, for now, I am playing an important role in the weird Circle of Life known as healthcare.

Now I can begin to take care better care of myself, so that I can feel better, and ultimately find clarity on what I want in life.  I realize that this state is not constant.  I have to remember to be still.  Funny, that I have to remind myself.

Should I write it on a sticky note to post on my door?  Whatever it takes, people.