Waiting

Having made a New Year's resolution to "get back out there," plus with the added pressure of Valentine's Day being around the corner, finding love is top of mind for many people right now.  Even if I'm not actively searching for it, the Match.com and eHarmony commercials on TV remind me of one thing that this goal-oriented gal hasn't tackled yet:  finding my match.

Honestly, I'm not good at this.  There are countless books, websites, and blogs that tell you how to date and how to find love, but really there are no formulas.  Being the analytical person that I am, I LOVE formulas; therefore, when it comes to matters of romance, I am at a loss.

[(Good Values + Confidence + Personality + Charm + Good Heart + Attractiveness + Career) x 2] + Luck = Love!

I have tried following my gut in the dating game, but as many of my closest friends know, I seem to have TERRIBLE instincts.  Or perhaps, I just ignore them.

I'm listening now...  Hello???  Will you tell me something?  Anything?

There is also that little matter of chemistry where I can't control to whom I'm attracted.  A frustrating fact, if you ask me.  How many times have I passed up the chance to date a perfectly nice guy just because I couldn't see myself kissing him at the end of a date?  It's only after dating someone "exciting" (a.k.a. The Bad Boy) that I realize that my hormones steered me in the wrong direction.  BB dates me because I am a challenge too.  Eventually, he gets bored and moves onto his next conquest, leaving me kicking myself at the thought of passing up the nice guy to be with the scoundrel.

How many girls can tell the same story?

While it hasn't been easy trying to forget all the mistakes I made in my past relationships, I have learned how to forgive and move on.  It's a start...

Now I just have to be open to the possibilities.